Honestly, this is all a little intimidating. I’ve been so focused on myself lately and making changes in my life and my career and my businesses. This is all just such a new space for me to walk in and I thought it was important to share a little backstory for some context.
In 2020, when the pandemic hit and the world shut down, my photography business actually had its most successful year. But behind the scenes of that success, I was hurting.
I had experienced losses so profound, my heart shattered in ways I never knew was possible. I felt like I was going through the motions in a day job that drained me. My work life felt so out of alignment with what I wanted and so I looked for inspiration through photography.
And since bringing film in as a regular part of my workflow, the beauty and creativity in photography that had drawn me in was back quicker than it had left. It felt so good to have that spark back in what I loved.
At the same time, I felt like I didn’t know what was next for me. I had always wanted to inspire others and yes, I felt like photography was doing that. I was able to offer my clients an experience to witness the beauty I saw in them through beautiful photographs of their love stories. But I still felt like something was missing.
And then one day, I read an email from a woman I had subscribed to her e-mail list many months before. We had both followed each other on Instagram for who knows how long, but other than occasionally commenting on each others posts, we didn’t really engage much. Honestly, I don’t even know if I paid much attention to the content she was sharing.
Before sharing this post, I actually tried to go back and find the email that changed my life…I couldn’t find it. But what’s important here is that it truly did change my life. It’s part of the long journey that got me here.
Ultimately, I had hired her to be my business coach. What I didn’t know is that this journey was going to be so much more than simply business coaching.
Remember the loss I mentioned earlier? Well, one of those losses occurred in the middle of the business group coaching program I was going through with her. I remember pulling away from the group meetings, bailing on our 1-1 calls and essentially shutting myself completely down.
Eventually, I responded to her and shared what I had been going through. You wanna know what she said?
That’s when I knew this was sooo much more than just business coaching.
The coaching sessions we were having were creating huge shifts in my life on a personal level. I started to realize that the human behind my business could start to heal herself. And in healing myself, I was able to better serve my wonderful clients. She and I have gone so deep into so many different emotions, memories and experiences and it has been such a beautiful, painful, challenging, rewarding and life changing journey.
So why am I sharing all of this with you?
Well, the other part of all of this behind the scenes work has been my own health and healing journey. In the past year, I have lost over 55 pounds. And I’ve finally been living my life the way I had always wanted to; I just didn’t know how. Willpower alone isn’t enough to create lasting change. No matter how badly I had told myself I wanted to lose weight, I tried and failed again and again over the past decade.
Until I did the identity level healing to truly create lasting change. And the changework I experienced with my coach created the full body identity of the woman I am now.
A woman who exercises because she truly LOVES her body.
The woman who eats foods that nourish her because she LOVES the way they make her feel.
A woman who prioritizes her mental health because she KNOWS she is worth it.
The woman who walks with confidence.
Identity work is a foundational piece of the work I have been doing. Stepping into this new identity of the woman I am today has given me so much more than I ever expected.
So today, I would like to challenge you to just start to notice the thoughts that are floating around in your head as you do things throughout the day. And start to question your thoughts.
Maybe you look in the mirror and have a thought about the way you look. Pause and repeat that thought. How does it make you feel?
Oftentimes we talk to ourselves in ways we would NEVER speak to those we love. So why are we doing it to ourselves? When you think that negative thought, reframe it. For example, if I were to look in the mirror and the thought “I’m ugly” came up, I’d ask, “Really? Ugly? How can I prove this is NOT true?”
Well, I’d look in the mirror and make a conscious effort to notice all of the beautiful things about me. Maybe it’s the color of my eyes or the way my hair looks that day. Maybe the jeans I’m wearing make my butt look ahhhhMAZING!! And in the beginning, you will need to make a conscious effort to question these thoughts and notice where your mind is making up a story that isn’t the whole truth.
Just start to notice where those negative thoughts are creeping in and take a moment to question them. It seems simple, but it’s tough when you’re first trying to notice these things. Make a point each day, maybe first thing in the morning as you wash your face and brush your teeth and prepare for the day.
Notice how wonderful you begin to feel when you prove your mind wrong.
Thank you friend for reading this email. These emails will be coming about once a week with inspiration, stories and all the good things. I hope you’ll stick with me on this journey.
I love you. Again, thank you so much for sharing this space with me.
I have been integrating my own health and wellness journey the past 2 years and was feeling called to more. I work with women who also feel called to more; more freedom, love, trust, abundance, wealth...more for themselves.
When I hit what felt like rock bottom after several miscarriages and hating and eating myself to Class III Obesity, I knew I had to do something different. Discovering and utilizing subconscious tools and integrations has helped me lose over 60 pounds. I continue to work on breaking the glass ceilings that I felt would always keep me stuck at overweight and unhappy and finally have the career, marriage and life that I have always wanted for myself. Isn't it beautiful when you get to have it all?
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